May was an overwhelming month for me. I had so much going on!
I was lacking sleep, energy, my emotions were leading me and I felt I was not walking in purpose. My spiritual tank was half way empty and I just couldn’t seem to steward my time to fill it up.
Most nights I would be up from 2:30 am, WIDE AWAKE.
It’s has been non-stop thinking. Non- stop doing.
From running a whole dental practice + business. To working through the next thing God has called me to do. Trying to waddle my way through the a school system trying to make a change. Prepping lectures/ teaching materials for three courses including one that I just “don’t feel like I am good at” (like 🙃😖😕). Making sure my amazing students reach full potential and receive the BEST (after all they show up and are paying for their education! ) Taking care of my family. Trying to steward my relationships. (Yes, people will get upset that you’re not as available as you used to be – and that is OKAY!). Being intentional about setting time aside to tune into the Holy Spirit. Sitting in what seems to be like never ending traffic! And in the midst of all of this, the enemy is trying to lie to me that I am still not doing enough annnnnndddd 🙄 I actually bought into that for these past few days!
Honestly, I had to unplug. I had to put my devices down. Respond to what I considered priority and to get my life back in order. But how exactly was I going to get my life in order if I was waking up too tired to spend time with God and if by the end of the day after work/ church/ bible study – I was also too tired.
I found that in the midst of this I had time to have extended conversations with everyone else. Scheduling calls with loved ones abroad. Pouring out and out and out and about only 15 minutes a day was being poured in. Yes, I was praying / talking to God throughout my day but it was not focused. In the end, I got distracted and unbalanced.
I got so focused on my situations that I took my eyes off the promise of God.
I got so caught up that I also forgot to pay attention to my boundaries and to steward my time and relationships with the instructions the Holy Spirit gave.
I forgot how to be still!
I just needed to stop and prioritise what is important. I needed to remove some thing off my plate. I needed to affirm my “no” and most importantly I needed to maintain those boundaries which are so easy to tear down. I had to realise I can’t do and be everything to everyone. I cant be everywhere. I don’t have to respond to every message immediately. Everything in its own time.
The most important time I needed to get right was the time spent with my Creator – talking with Him, reading His word, worshipping Him, dancing with Him and listening in to His Spirit. Everything else does not matter if He is not the centre. How could He be the centre if I am always preoccupied and tired?
We must be ready to allow ourselves to be interrupted by God.
Keep still and let Him do some work.
Busyness is an illness of spirit.
You must ruthlessly eliminate hurry from your life.
…all men need enough silence and solitude in their lives to enable the deep inner voice of their own true self to be heard at least occasionally.
Philippians 4:8 – “Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.”
Proverbs 17:22 – “A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.”
Philippians 4:6 – “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.”
Philippians 4:13 – “I can do all things through him who strengthens me.”
Jeremiah 29:11 – “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
lots of love,